You're haunting me.

It's been said you should love yourself before anyone else can love you. I really don't understand myself, and how I have become this way. Largely a really low and pointless day; 7am for a ten minute lecture?! Also the internets wouldn't work at uni and then 246PY was boring rehash. They have taken my bus stop away, so tomorrow I shall have to go all the way to the bus station and find out my alternatives, there site online is honestly useless. Also, none of these changes are meant to occur until Sunday so I have no clue why the fucking council is being gay. I am calm, largely now. I've just got to focus, Mark's having time away to suppress his feelings for me, and I have a deadline a week today so I basically need to get it done this weekend anyway. I feel like being better already, I just need to be able to reach out; see how others see me, start liking myself and understanding myself and then it'll get better a step at a time. I just need one big breakthrough.