I’m holding a half-hearted smile to your face.

Packing, leaving once again.

It's so annoying how I get so comfortable here, and then I am pulled back into reality - the scary, lonely, shitty reality. I just don't want to go, it's weird but it's a symbolic sign. It's like I don't want to lose the comfort of how it is here, the good and the bad. I can't move forwards and I need to. It's sad. I'm hoping, being intelligent and hopeful that I can get out of this mindset though.

I feel sort of accomplished. I got one of my courseworks done today, completely finished with references and all. But then I've got 1000 words left on another essay and also major, m a j o r revision for an exam next Wednesday. Got to remember to e-mail the tutor about referencing in the exam, and penalties for mixing up references.

(if i was..)

• If I was a month, I’d be July.
• If I was a day of the week, I’d be Saturday.
• If I was a time of day, I’d be Midafternoon.
• If I was an animal of the sea, I’d be a dolphin.
• If I was a direction, I’d be North.
• If I was a planet, I'd be Neptune.
• If I was a piece of furniture, I’d be a secret drawer.
• If I was a sin, I'd be sloth.
• If I was a current historical figure, I'd be Barack Obama.
• If I was a liquid, I’d be the sea.
• If I was a gemstone, I’d be a ruby.
• If I was a tree, I’d be an oak.
• If I was a bird, I'd be a sparrow.
• If I was a tool, I’d be a glue gun.
• If I was a flower, I'd be a peony or a red rose.
• If I was a material, I’d be soft printed cotton.
• If I was a kind of weather, I’d be a slight sun with a chance of a light rain.
• If I was a musical instrument, I’d be an acoustic guitar.
• If I was a color, I’d be sky blue.
• If I was a vegetable, I'd be sweetcorn.
• If I was a word, I'd be serenity.
• If I was an emotion, I’d be courage.
• If I was a fruit, I’d be a strawberry.
• If I was a sound, I’d be the waves coming to shore and out again.
• If I was a body part, I'd be the eyes.
• If I was a song, I'd be February Air by Lights.
• If I was an element, I’d be a mix of water, earth and fire.
• If I was an automobile, I’d be a bmw x5.
• If I was a food, I’d be pizza.
• If I was a taste, I’d be nutella.
• If I was a scent, I’d be fresh ocean breeze.
• If I was a place, I’d be Canada in the summer.
• If I was a mammal, I'd be a dolphin.
• If I was a phase of the moon, I'd be waxing gibbous.
• If I was berry, I'd be sweet and sour.
• If I was a book, I'd be American Gods by Neil Gaiman.